girlie jones (girliejones) wrote,
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A problem shared

So it's Rosh Hashanah (Jewish New Year) next Monday night and it's customary for me at this time of the year to sit down and take stock of my year that's been. What I feel regretful or shameful of. What I feel thankful for. How I want to change the direction or things in my life. That kind of thing. Kinda prepare for the "meeting" I shall have with Gpd on Yom Kippur (Day of Atonement) 10 days after New Years. It's a serious time on the Jewish calendar and not so much with the merriment of the end of the secular calendar year.

I think though when I look back on this year, what I'm overwhelmed with most of all by it was the amount of love I got. And hopefully gave too. This year was filled with family and friends and love. What an awesome thing to sum up a year with. I am really thankful. And am a lucky lucky person.

And I have just had a chance to offload to benpayne about a problem at work and he made it sound totally fine and reasonable. And better. That's pretty awesome. (I have missed you B!!) See, there's this guy at work who I think has a crush on me. But I am not actually attracted to him. And for some reason, I was feeling bad about it, like responsible or that I have to do something or not enjoy how it makes me feel when I don't intend to take it anywhere ... as Ben put it ... it's okay to feel desired. Duh! Of course it is. How do I get my knickers into such knots!
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