editormum has just left after having finally met my family. And I think I have worked out what this headache, the sore neck and the tense upper back muscles are about. My Big Idea. I have been ruminating on it, meditating on it, doing numbers, throwing more ideas at it. Anything and everything I can think of. I have talked endlessly about it with people around me. I've focussed on it, almost to exclusion, one might call it an obsession at this point, for the last 8 days.
Nothing I do changes it. It does not work. In the current timeframe. And I think that was what the dream was about and why my neck cracks everytime I look sideways. *Thinking* about this is not going to make it happen. GAh!
But, as usual, editormum has left my place, later than intended, and we are both armed with long and totally new To Do lists. I now have a plan. It's a freaking 18 month schedule plan. But I have a plan that will help me work toward the Big Idea being a reality. It's too big to make it work any other way. Damnit! And thinking more about it is not going to change that right now, But that's cool. We have a vision and a plan. That means we have a direction and all we need to do is start walking, one foot in front of the other that way. Over there! No not *there*. To the left a little. Wayyyy off into the distance. Do you see it?
Now. I just need some panadol I think.