September 7th, 2008

Willow

Weekend mischief

I'm filing most of yesterday under "miscellaneous weird stuff happened" and moving on.

I don't have too much of a hangover. Something is bad with my car ... driving home from Father's Day brunch just now, it started idling funny and there might have been a burning smell. That's not good right? I lifted up the hood - points to me for knowing how to do that - but I'm not the right kind of engineer so I peered in and had no idea what to look for. I need to go to a mechanic tomorrow, don't I?

And now I have about 10 hours of editing waiting for me.

House is mostly cleaned up from last night. Gonna go get my new Enjo things off the line now and see how they perform. Have to collect up all my hexagons though that ended up all over the house, some might need a wash from being splattered with soup, champagne and who knows what else. I need to remember that "casual" party means one step up from "normal" living and should pick up (my craft projects) after myself *before* guests arrive.

Much alcohol was consumed. My soup was enjoyed but I suspect I undercatered. Was lovely time though with just the right number of people, I think. Although, am thinking I will break the "no meat" rule in the house for the first Wednesday in November and do hot dogs for the US Election Party. And also, I need those big floor cushions so that more people can watch TV in my house. I've seen them at Thingz ...
Willow

Enjo

OMG. I just became a convert.

I just spent a total of 5 mins cleaning up glass tables from the party last night with fricking *water* and it looks better than it did yesterday when the house got cleaned.
Willow

workies

It's probably wrong that it amuses me that half my guests commandeered computers at my place last night to blog and the other half brought their own laptops to hop onto the wireless. And that people were also texting me from across the room. And punkrocker1991 phoned me whilst I was in the bathroom. Ahhh ... the electronic age, eh?

Ugh. I feel rotten but I have a ton of stuff to do including two other blog posts I want to write. Here's the main list:

- tidy up my GUFF nomination
- get novella finished and off to layout
- finish Sekrit project number 2
- clean up kitchen
- boil eggs for work
- drink 600 mL of water
- get emails down to 40 (sitting at 95)
- work on getting Study sorted and tidied
- clean out fridge
- finish laundry
- finish edits for Shiny 4

There's a bunch of other stuff but I'll see how I go.

Yesterday catsparx showed us the cover she's been working on for Dirk's novella. It's gorgeous! Cat has a way of making me fall in love with my projects all over again. She's working amazingly hard this month in preparation for Conflux and I'm really lucky to have her as a friend and for her taking on finishing up the novella with layout, cover art and printing. Thanks Cat!
Willow

GUFF

For those who read my blog and are wondering what the heck this GUFF thing is and since it's probably gonna feature round here for a little while.

I snurched this from: http://taff.org.uk/guffplat.html

What is GUFF? Known as the Going Under Fan Fund or the Get Up-and-over Fan Fund, depending on which direction it's running, GUFF was created in 1979. Like TAFF (the Trans Atlantic Fan Fund, between Europe and North America) and DUFF (the Down Under Fan Fund, between North America and Australia), GUFF exists to provide funds to enable well-known fans from Europe and Australasia to visit each other's national (or other) conventions and get to know each other's fandoms better. GUFF, like other fan funds, exists solely through the support of fandom. The candidates for each trip are voted on by interested fans, and each vote is accompanied by a monetary donation. These votes, and the continuing generosity of fandom through auctions and other donations, are what make GUFF possible.

ETA You can watch the race closer to hand or find out about Fan Fund information via aust_sf_fan_fun  and the winner of this year's GUFF race gets sent to attend LX in London over Easter 2009.
 
Willow

On happiness ... again

I've got a bunch of jumbled thoughts in my head that would probably come out more coherently if I left these posts for a day or two but work is really ramping up and I don't think I will have a lot of room to move this week.

I've been quizzed a bit in RL on just what it is I mean by the "Fairytale" and the "happily ever after" because I don't mean "and then there were never any problems and noone was ever sad or fought or ... whatever" That's not what I mean at all. Because I guess I considered I had the fairytale with the ex and I would have stayed with him had he not ended it because I felt I was on that path - and that was far from happy and beyond the rainbows where it is bright and shiny and golden.

So I've been thinking about just what it is that I mean. And at the same time, I've been thinking about how you can be happy, and have what you want but for it to just look different to how you thought it would. And I guess, one of the things I always thought would be inside this "fairytale" is that my house would be always full of people - coming and going, dropping in and staying. And I guess I saw that as a household full of kids. But when I sat back and looked round last night, I realised that my house and my life already look like that picture. Ever since I moved into this house, it's been (and my life has been) filled with people - dropping in, coming over for dinner parties and coffee, staying over. This house bursts with life and love and laughter. And last night I had people come for dinner, other people drop in afterwards and feel so at home that they could go to the fridge, take out dinner leftovers and microwave them and join the crowd. It made me happy to realise that I have what I always wanted - it just looks different to how I thought it would. That's all. And that's not to say that I won't ever have a house filled with kids but it does show that there are different variations to a/my fairytale. And that I shouldn't miss the wood for the trees.

On top of that, I feel so blessed because of the friends I have and for the people who pass through my life, on whatever timescale. I admit I am in a bit of a crazy headspace right now with some crazy propositions I am floating and I got hassled out from one end of the night to the other with pleas to just *not* but I also got ... I still love you and I will be here to pick up the pieces, several times in the night. And how can you not feel free to see if you can fly when you have people like that preparing the safety net behind you?

And also, when said craziness is actually more about self-harm but when you look around at the people around you who will pick up the pieces, you realise, maybe you aren't harming just yourself anymore. And that kinda detracts from the appeal. Guess that kinda means I'm not actually alone anymore. And if people are going to the trouble to get the safety nets out, maybe it would be more worthwhile to jump to see if I can fly and not for the purpose of crashing and burning.

(Special note to those who had to hear said Crazyness - not gonna remotely do it, was just *thinking aloud* to see HOW crazy ... and yes .. outrageously so.)
Willow

GUFF - I am away!

I just submitted my GUFF nomination. Many thanks to those who vetted my platform and also many thanks to my nominators!

I'm so chuffed because callistra's comment was "it reads fast and furious, but that tends to be the way you tackle things" - what an awesome compliment!

So ... there you are.