November 1st, 2008



I have a headache. Well... I still have the one I had yesterday. And the other night I had a weird dream of owls falling out of trees and when I went to look at them, they were wearing helmets made out of coconuts. I was telling my mother this dream this morning for interpretation, cause I really really don't want it to be something about me losing my wisdom and she said it was something more like ... don't think too hard. Or don't weigh down your head ... cause you'll fall out of a tree. I had been thinking it was to do with the boy, who I haven't mentioned much. Mostly cause he said it was kinda cool but also intimidating to appear as a character on this blog. But I digress. I have a headache.

editormum has just left after having finally met my family. And I think I have worked out what this headache, the sore neck and the tense upper back muscles are about. My Big Idea. I have been ruminating on it, meditating on it, doing numbers, throwing more ideas at it. Anything and everything I can think of. I have talked endlessly about it with people around me. I've focussed on it, almost to exclusion, one might call it an obsession at this point, for the last 8 days.

Nothing I do changes it. It does not work. In the current timeframe. And I think that was what the dream was about and why my neck cracks everytime I look sideways. *Thinking* about this is not going to make it happen. GAh!

But, as usual, editormum has left my place, later than intended, and we are both armed with long and totally new To Do lists. I now have a plan. It's a freaking 18 month schedule plan. But I have a plan that will help me work toward the Big Idea being a reality. It's too big to make it work any other way. Damnit! And thinking more about it is not going to change that right now, But that's cool. We have a vision and a plan. That means we have a direction and all we need to do is start walking, one foot in front of the other that way. Over there! No not *there*. To the left a little. Wayyyy off into the distance. Do you see it?

Now. I just need some panadol I think.

Finally sitting down

What a crazy day! Why is it that I can never sleep in when I am actually allowed to? Up at 7.30 this morning, wide awake (never on a weekday though) and off running errands by 8am. Met my mum and her friend for breakfast at 9am. Met the new puppy, Tilly, at 9.50 (OMG she is so CUTE! And little!!) and at the hairdresser's by 10ish. Out of there with dark, straight hair by 12.30 and off and running for things I needed at the Galleria. Home by 2pm. T rocked up with kids. Then family. Then all gone by 8pm and then I baked two veg pasta bakes (one for tomorrow and one for me to freeze). Shower. Dinner. And now it's 10pm and I can finally sit down and check my email.

Soon hopefully the panadol with kick in.

Important things though - I auditioned 2009 diaries. Noone really made the cut so I will hold a second round next week but ... that's crazy! Normally I buy my diary in March, cause I'm cheap. But I am already booked well into December already so ... should get prepared for 09 and I want to get ahead on things.

I also bought a long cable and ..... just moved my desktop PC into my STUDY! My kitchen benchtop is finally FREE!!!!! (That's probably only relevant if you've been to my place but still... a BIG DEAL!)

I quite like this HIGH INTENSITY month. I dunno if it's my attitude or if it's the list or if it's momentum, but I am really getting things done. I'm kinda interested to see what my life looks like at the end of November. I reckon it'll be a lot different to now. And I was shopping for Christmas Cards today cause ... yeah ... it's time to get cracking on that list and I remembered how nice it is to feel on top of things and ahead. And I'd like to operate that way across my whole life - that's the goal I am working towards for the end of November but I think the trick is to start somewhere, get on top of that, run that for a while and then slowly look elsewhere that you can do the same. Like everything, *I* think that you can't get ahead until you are up to speed across the board but, like everything, it turns out baby steps, one at a time, will actually get you there faster.

So ... did YOU write 1700 words today? *grins*