November 10th, 2008



The Bali Bombers were executed this weekend gone. I just read the piece that have up:,27574,24626276-401,00.html It's an odd one - all moody and atmospheric with descriptions of a starless sky and a big moon. Is that an attempt to make it more poetic?

I'm against capital punishment, as a Jewish person and as a pacifist. And as such, I'm not joyous at these events. As Australians we don't agree with the death penalty and we campaign other governments not to execute our citizens when they get charged with offenses punishable by death in their countries. And as such, I've been feeling very uneasy and a bit sick watching the news coverage this weekend of Australian responses to the executions. I didn't lose anyone and I didn't know anyone hurt or killed by the bombings. Maybe I would feel differently if I did.

That said, I'm kinda glad that fucking grin has been wiped off the face of Amrozi. I have wanted to smack him across the mouth for 6 long years. There's no grace in the way he reacted all along the way. Fine you have your beliefs, they're not what the rest of the civilised world consider appropriate but you know ... at least don't grin like a fucking cheshire cat who got his milk, joyously indulgent and overimpressed by yourself and and what you did.

But what got me was this "we're gonna die martyrs" thing - which, if it was a religious thing, why not choose a suicide bombing? Isn't what Gpd thinks more important than being news cycle celebrities? Then they lapped up the 6 years and rejoiced at the death sentence till it looked real and then they appealed. Why appeal? Didn't they want to be martyrs afterall? And then ... it seems, Amrozi, the smiling assassin, was scared to die - was pale and afraid they said - when he was about to meet his fate. Not quite so sure what your Maker is going to say?

Mostly, I feel relief at the executions - that this will no longer be part of the news cycle. And that I don't have to look at Amrozi's smiling fucking face any more.

Was the outcome just? Should we have objected to the punishment? Will there be retaliations? Can Bali come back from this?

All questions to be answered in the history books, I guess.


The single worst thing about living alone?

Noone else to deal with spiders.

There was one about the size of a side plate above the kitchen entrance to my dining room this morning. I HATE spiders and I especially HATE big spiders. I tried to throw a boot at it to kill it. I missed twice cause I throw like someone who can't throw. And I know it will be gone when I get home but like ... where?! Where will it have gone? I might have to consider moving.

Where I'm at

I'm about 10 tasks behind but hopefully they will fall out at some point since some tasks are bigger than others and are in progress. It's kind of exciting really. My to do list is all the hideous tasks (and more) that I have been avoiding doing all year or really need to get done by the end of the year. And as momentum gains I'm starting to do tasks I have seriously put off for ages and I'm like - why? This took a total of 5mins and was an email I had to write or a payment I had to transfer or whatever. I put off the funniest things and get such mental blocks on the silliest of things. For no reason. This afternoon it occurred to me that if I keep going on this, I could very well go into 2009 with a clean slate, with no carryover and nothing to feel guilty and bad about - I can hardly imagine what that feels like.

And my goal total keeps growing - which reminds me of when I worried what would happen if I got everything done. Seems as soon as you complete one task, it spawns 3 to 5 more so probably I will be fine!

Hope your NaNo is going well too!

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