December 3rd, 2008


Starry emoticons

So I couldn't see the moon on Monday night to look at the smiley. Last night though I was out and about the town with J and I saw this :( instead - looked exactly the opposite of what everyone else saw Monday night. And that I spose is funny cause both J and I were rather morose for different reasons last night. We drowned that though in good conversation, sharing of war stories, great wine and food.

Was lovely. But as usual, am tired today.

And doesn't change any of the crap going on for either of us right now.

Ahhh the fountain of youth from different angles

Yesterday I realised that my mother was my age when she lost her dad. And yesterday in particular that really got to me.

Me: I realised today that you were my age when your dad died.
Mum: Yeah.
Me: I'm really sorry. I don't think I was upset enough for you at the time.
Mum: You were six. You seemed pretty upset at the time.
Me: Yeah but not for you.
Mum: Oh?
Me: Well you seemed really old at the time. Now you seem really young.
Mum: Funny that.

I got me some heavy thoughts goin' on right now. You might have noticed. Life's about living, yeah? It all seems to be going really fast though at the moment - the hours, the days, the months, this year. I don't want to turn around in 40 years and think that it all just flew by and I didn't get time to do what really counted to me. When I got sick with Crohns and they were in the process of ruling out cancer, I took stock and looked at what I would have wished I'd done if I were given 6 months to live. Luckily for me I could list a bunch of stuff I'd done that I really wanted to - I'd seen the Pyramids and the Eiffel Tower. And I realised how comforting that was. And I realised I don't ever what to live with regrets or live in a way that I will regret.

I dunno where this thought process is going right now. I'm happy with life and with where I'm at, for the most part. But I think it's good every now and then to stop and take stock and just check. Cause yeah, it does all go by pretty fast.


Shiny Issue 4!

The Fix have given Shiny 4 a really great review. Thanks punktortoise for the heads up.

Of Bren MacDibble's "Being Bella Wang", Smith writes: In this short tale, MacDibble expertly evokes an exotic locale full of magic, as well as vivid, interesting characters with a strong bond.

Of Michael Merriam's "All the Leaves Your Bed”, she says: Merriam deftly skirts the well of sentiment that could so easily have drowned this story, and takes it to surprising places. There is an image near the end that is simply breathtaking.

And of Rhonda Parrish’s “Skitter Skitter,” - Parrish does a great job with teen exasperation as Chloe describes their progress, often talking in the purple clichés of teen writing... The rest will please readers who like the illogic of go-for-the-grue horror.

Take advantage of our special promo and purchase Issues 4 and 5 for the special price of $5 and get Issue 4 in your inbox now and Issue 5 very very soon.

Or check out the Shiny website to buy single issues and subscriptions. Whilst you're there, have a read of Rachel and my commentary on Buffy Season 2 which is close to wrapping up. We'll be doing an all new season - 3 - in the all new year!



Finally. After calling it the New Ceres Anthology for like a year now, Tehani and I have finally settled on the title for the book -

New Ceres Nights will be launched at Swancon 2009.

And ... saucy by title, saucy by nature, I'm thinking that we will be having a swanky little launch for it so don't forget to pack something a bit dressy!!

The other fun thing going on with this project at the moment, apart from working through the final few submissions that are hanging around, is the art work. I've been a bit cheap on art but Tehani is passionate both about artwork and this project and has been pushing all along for a lot of artwork for this book. At the moment we are sorting through submissions as they come in for both cover art and internals and I must admit that I am getting quite excited about this project. I think it's going to be one that I am very proud of.


Oh Come on!

TEACHERS have been told to stop marking schoolchildren's work with red pen because it is an "aggressive" colour.

Queensland's Deputy Opposition Leader Mark McArdle told parliament today that teachers were being advised to reconsider their pen choice because it may offend children.,27574,24745013-421,00.html

It's offensive *because* it's grading you ie the *association*. Change the colour and it too will become offensive. How ridiculous! Shall we just not correct kids now if they are wrong for fear we will upset them? This is how Sarah Palin got to run for a job she was grossly underqualified for wasn't it - noone wanted to hurt her feelings by pointing it out.

Bring on mediocrity, I spose, with this kind of thinking.


Aurealis Awards Question

Does anyone know of it's true that a short story published in December can't win but can only tie for an Aurealis Award?

ETA: From the Director: "The eligibility dates are for work published/available from 1st November 2007 to 31st October 2008. If it falls within those guidelines then it's totally and utterly eligible -there's no "it's published in December during the Christmas rush - so therefore it can only tie" rule. "



Firstly, how have I lived without strawberries and cream (the lolly) dipped in yoghurt? Found them last night when J and I did a late night food shop for dessert after dinner - where "late night" in Perth means after 9.10pm.

Secondly, am back on the list program with a deadline of Christmas - well actually Dec 23 - to complete. The list has 165 items (sorry Rachel!) and I need to have done 21 by the time I go to bed tonight. I've done 2 and I didn't sleep well last night so it's looking tight. I'm also committing to a steady reading for LSS2009 of 3 stories a day, everyday. And have only read 3 so far for Dec.

So yeah, it's going well! But I was feeling very sleepy and lethargic and uninspired. Something I am learning about myself is I get into funny loops - things get messy and behind and then I feel bad, lose momentum and things get messier and more behind. And the longer it goes on, the harder it is to pull out and the more expansive the mess becomes. For ages I have been talking about finding the switch that flips me between for want of a better analogy - good gj versus bad gj. Maybe it's not a switch at all. Maybe it's more like a slide.

There's something to be said for the Flylady approach. As easy as it would have been to throw in the towel tonight, have cheese on toast, deal with nothing at home and just start all over again tomorrow, I didn't do that. I got up, made dinner and in the 15 mins it took to boil the rice, I cleaned up my kitchen sorted a bunch of stuff into my work bag for tomorrow so they will get done and then just looking at a tidy kichen perked me up. I got some other stuff done. And then I did some TPP stuff. And I don't feel like I lost the day and have to find the momentum to gear up tomorrow. Cause it feeds on itself and I have the momentum now to feed into tomorrow.

Maybe I finally figured out how to deal with myself when I don't want to do stuff? Do something else, no matter how small, but that is easy to look at as completed and an improvement from the status quo.

Meanwhile, it's nearly bedtime and I didn't *actually* get to the stuff on the to do list.